Aiden and Mama Bear

 My sweet boy 🥲❤️ I got to love him for almost 18 years... It wasn't enough 💔 I've thought so many times that this pain isn't something I can do 😢 I understand how someone could die from pain and sadness now, because it just doesn't feel sustainable😢💔 I just miss him so bad and it hurts so much😭💔

I read something the other day that was a different perspective that I liked and it helped me a little bit. It was as though a parent was talking to God and God told them that He had a very special child for them. They were picked especially for this child, and he for them, the only problem was that they wouldn't get to see their child grow to adulthood, He would need this child back sooner. Would they still take him? Would they still be able to love him with all they had, knowing their hearts would be shattered when the day came, too soon, that God called him home? My Answer: I would. A million times over. I know I would have taken Aiden even if this is what I would have to go through. Maybe before this life, I knew....and maybe I was brave enough to say yes. Maybe I knew that this wasn't it, that even when it hurt so much that I thought I might die, I wouldn't, but when it was my time it would be ok...because my perfect boy would be there waiting for me, every bit as alive as he was before God called him back home. Maybe I knew...and if I did and I was brave enough and loved Aiden enough to say yes then, then I can be brave enough and love him enough to keep going now❤️❤️❤️

Love you all so much my little family.  We can do this, even when it hurts so bad that we don't know what to do.  We were all brave enough for this to be part of our story, and we'll all be able to be together again when it's time💗 

Pics: my little baking buddy, making a silly face when all i wanted was a selfie, buckskin gulch, Yellowstone, riding bikes and motorcycles, Denmark, our pirate Halloween patches and the look on his face in this is my absolute favorite, Yellowstone again, b-day with his crazy curly hair, rock shop  at Rocky mtn natl park, skunk party at Gr. Ruby's, trail of 10 falls Oregon, Matanuska Glacier Alaska













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